Needing Mental Health for my Meltdowns

Last week was hard for me. I haven't been to the therapist for 2 and a half months (I totally spaced my last two appointments which is very unlike me), so when we talked on the phone today and she thought I wasn't coming anymore I just about freak out a bit...She asked me how I was or why did I think I had to come....I'm not sleeping well, I'm gaining weight like crazy, I can't be by myself (I'll constantly go to people's houses just not to be alone), I just filed for official divorce yesterday, which will mean coparenting (aka making decisions about my children w an irrational man) for the next 16 years, I have a new job I am adapting my expectations to...."So, it sounds like maybe you should come" (Do you think???)...Just because I keep going and I am (very) functional, doesn't mean it doesn't help to have some "help"...I am a firm believer in therapy, I think it's good for everybody...My coworkers and friends will tell you I recommend it to anybody...I just really think it works. Period.
I had Mate (Argentinian tea-like beverage) and dinner w my 2 Argentinian friends (Maria and Angels)...I feel very unpressured while I'm with them...There's so many things they understand that no one does, there's things (about "America") that we don't understand and we figure out together (or try)...It's just so easy to be around people that just want to be around you because you represent their culture...not much pressure there.
Truth is, I don't know if we would be friends if we all lived in Argentina, but it's funny where life takes you...and gives you everything you need.
I had to coach (without the lesson book) to my Girls on the Run...and I was petrified but didn't let the girls know it...and I'm a total pushover, but I didn't let them because I was the only adult and I just really wanted to return them safely home...So, pretty good job.
Kyrsten made me a plant (she's that Godlike) for mother's day, they put a plant on a milk carton after pasting little piece of different fabrics on it...It's the most beautiful thing someone has given me, Olivia gave me a beautiful butterfly too...They made me super emotional...
Summer better be coming to stay!!!
Have great days tomorrow!!!