Asbestos and dust....Debt, and the misterious future

Great! That's how life is for me right now...great!
I tore up a wall last night w a hammer I could barely lift...that's my stubbornness for you....My lungs are full of asbestos...
Today, my house is full of dust....and I'm still not done....Tomorrow, I still need to mud...I don't know when I'm going to clean and grocery shop....There's absolutely no food in my house...
My brother in law (or ex brother in law) came to help me today, to teach me how to drywall. So, while he finished I got us dinner...
Michael used to be so jealous for no reason (just because he's a control freak) about him...But now, he's really helped me with some stuff...and it's great...it was a great dinner...It's so relieving to have dinner w a guy you have no attraction to, you know they are not attracted to you, and you know nothing is going to happen...it takes so much pressure off...
We usually talk about relationships and sex (or lack there of), cultural differences....and life in general...It's great, simple...It's nice to have a guy friend, a guy's perspective, just a different unfiltered one...And a handy friend :)
One of the things that came up was that, I'm probably going to live here forever (unless I end up travelling abroad for my international career, but the US will probably be "base"). I know I'll eventually get married again, and chances are that it will be to an American...
Americans grow, live and breath on debt...and I will be debt free, in 6 years...I'm going to school on grants, as they might become available...
I'm not looking (or running away either) for a serious relationship.
When relationships first start, and for a while, finances are a separate but eventually, the more your relationship progresses, the more your put lives together.
Finances are such a big part of relationships, whether we like it or not. So I just wonder, will I ever find someone I can build a future with (in every sense)???
I know I don't need to think that far ahead, specially now that I am not interested in a relationship...I just over think...
Oh well, time for bed people...
Have an amazing, stress free sleep...

Lots of errands and condoms

If you haven't read my blog before, you might find that I am weird after you read this post. If you have, you probably already know I am.
I had a very productive day today, like the ones I really like.
I went to work in my bike, rocked the Medical Records world, worked out at lunch, went home, filled out a college application (Makes my nerdy self so happy), paid the mortgage, went to Zumba (in my bike again)...And then the day stopped for a bit...
I went for a beer with my friend Maria, which was great...Letting all our "argentinism" out and just talk and laugh...It's so great to just talk in Spanish and hang out for a while...Apparently, guys think it's ok to join our conversation "un poquito, nada"...Newsflash: Not everyone that goes to a bar wants to flirt...At least I don't...Maybe I should change that mindset...Not tonight though...
I came home, and got my grocery list ready...I started planning meals and couldn't figure out a 4th meal...That's how much I cook and how much it's in my mind...
I went to Walmart, with my grocery list, which I sticked to, and with the intention to buy exercise clothes...I don't care about exercise clothes any day...except for the hour I do Zumba...Everybody looks pretty good..I feel very out of place...I like dressier clothes and I don't even buy that many clothes...So I don't like spending money on clothes to exercise (which I'm not terrible fond of doing in the first place)...But I decided to go to Walmart and get gym clothes...in the clearance rack...Everything was huge...When I went to the non clearance section, there wasn't much either...I ended up buying some jogging capris and a sports bra (my boobs look very small after they come out of it)...
I also bought condoms for the first time today. It was overwhelming...I stood there, probably for about 15 min...staring...Extra thin, with spermicide, rigged, w and without vibrator, different colors, magnum sizes....and the list goes on and on....Seriously??? I didn't know what to get. I don't have a penis (and I'm thankful for it).
Luckily, I was able to pick something without asking for costumer service :P
What did I choose??? Only I know...and it'll stay that way at least for tonight...
Goodnight!!!

Needing Mental Health for my Meltdowns

Last week was hard for me. I haven't been to the therapist for 2 and a half months (I totally spaced my last two appointments which is very unlike me), so when we talked on the phone today and she thought I wasn't coming anymore I just about freak out a bit...She asked me how I was or why did I think I had to come....I'm not sleeping well, I'm gaining weight like crazy, I can't be by myself (I'll constantly go to people's houses just not to be alone), I just filed for official divorce yesterday, which will mean coparenting (aka making decisions about my children w an irrational man) for the next 16 years, I have a new job I am adapting my expectations to...."So, it sounds like maybe you should come" (Do you think???)...Just because I keep going and I am (very) functional, doesn't mean it doesn't help to have some "help"...I am a firm believer in therapy, I think it's good for everybody...My coworkers and friends will tell you I recommend it to anybody...I just really think it works. Period.
I had Mate (Argentinian tea-like beverage) and dinner w my 2 Argentinian friends (Maria and Angels)...I feel very unpressured while I'm with them...There's so many things they understand that no one does, there's things (about "America") that we don't understand and we figure out together (or try)...It's just so easy to be around people that just want to be around you because you represent their culture...not much pressure there.
Truth is, I don't know if we would be friends if we all lived in Argentina, but it's funny where life takes you...and gives you everything you need.
I had to coach (without the lesson book) to my Girls on the Run...and I was petrified but didn't let the girls know it...and I'm a total pushover, but I didn't let them because I was the only adult and I just really wanted to return them safely home...So, pretty good job.
Kyrsten made me a plant (she's that Godlike) for mother's day, they put a plant on a milk carton after pasting little piece of different fabrics on it...It's the most beautiful thing someone has given me, Olivia gave me a beautiful butterfly too...They made me super emotional...
Summer better be coming to stay!!!
Have great days tomorrow!!!