Going on an extreme diet...

It's thundering pretty promisingly here...I love rain...you know what rain reminds me of??? You guessed it: Sex...Nice, slow romantic, or sweaty and hard sex...What a wonderful thing...
Have you ripped your eyes out yet???
I wasn't the best mom today...I yelled a few times and didn't do the steps to take privileges away..I just took it...It just drives me crazy that Kyrsten never wants to help...she never wants to pick up her own messes...She is being raised by a single mom so she better get on it. And fast.
Plus, it's hard to have to figure it all out by myself...I'm stressed. I was supposed to get my $365 (it used to be $600) in food stamps on Monday...and yesterday afternoon I checked my card balance and I hadn't gotten it yet...So I called this morning and she said they had been cancelled (long story)...I sent my latest (smaller) paychecks, and she reinstated me..and now I'm getting, $200...which I'm extremely grateful for, but I can't feed us on that amount...$365 was ok (and a bit of a challenge)...Maybe if I don't eat the half of the week I don't have the girls $200 will do...I don't get it...My income didn't increase...I know one person in the household left...but you can't feed 3 people on $200...I guess I'll have to find the way...
Supplementing my income is not working very well...After my initial investment of a blackboard, markers, batteries, a portable CD player, and the time I spend preparing the classes...I don't really make much at all...I think it is very important for kids to learn Spanish but it really feels like more of a sacrifice than a gain right now, to be honest...Maybe I'll just make it a summer thing...Who knows...
I really need to get this job now...Really really do...Or I don't know what I'm going to do...I can't sell my body, cause no one will even take it for free...God will provide..he always does...Pray for the job too...
I hate being in the system...I can't wait to get off of it...It stinks and makes no sense...And I work my butt off for a place who had millions in over profit every year...it's a joke...
My sister in law has been having mild contractions for a day and a half now...so hopefully this weekend we'll have a baby...I can't wait to meet her. Plus, babies put things in perspective...
OK, enough complaining...Time to dream of a better future...
Love,
Cata
ps...this was in my drafts for some reason...its from last friday...

Timely Uncle Sam

I haven't splept very well lately, worrying about money. Today my mortgage was due and I was going to have to borrow some money out of my girls account to make it, not even counting all my late bills...But I came home and the Federal tax return was here...I paid the mortgage, paid my house taxes, paid some bills online (include the State Taxes from 2007), took the girls swimming, wrote checks for the other bills....I feel sooooooooooo good...I'm too excited to fall asleep. I know this is a once a year thing...but I'm back on track, and I didnt spend a dime in silly things. God always provides!!!
So, I will be sleeping better soon...
Just keeping you updated (plus there's not much more battery left on my laptop)
What will you do with your tax returns???

Money, money, money

I'm crying.[This is turning into a very depressing blog]. I know better than to cry about money but I am. Every month after only paying my bills I only have $100 left over and that is for gas, phone card, diapers, cleaning products and any extras (as if I could afford any). I dont mind because I usually dont spend on anything else and I think it's worth the little sacrifice for a better future. However lately, I've been buying a few presents for my family in Argentina.
A few weeks ago I called to H&R Block to find out if I could do my taxes for the easy file ($48) and they said I could so I made and appointment. After 30 min of papers, we finished and she told me it was $271...after I complained, the owner lowered it to $241...to which I said "lets go ahead and do it since it's already done". This weekend I got a letter from the Colorado Department of Revenue saying I owe $272 in back taxes from a misfiling from 2007...and that I need to pay within 10 days. Michael says he doesn't understand and I should go ahead and pay it.
After a year of a non fuctioning new sink sitting in my bathroom, I decided to conect it myself, and trying to unscrew the cap I broke the pipe...I don't know how will that fit into my budget. So I'm crying. I'm tired of not gettin paid for as much as I should, for making sacrificies and still not making it, of all those damn extra things that I cant afford.
I which I had some chocolatly confort food to make me feel better...or some Argentinian candy...I wish I had a person to share my burden with...
Can I go on vacation now, please???
Ok, I think I am going to unplug my brain and watch some tv because I am absolutely drained...