Going on an extreme diet...

It's thundering pretty promisingly here...I love rain...you know what rain reminds me of??? You guessed it: Sex...Nice, slow romantic, or sweaty and hard sex...What a wonderful thing...
Have you ripped your eyes out yet???
I wasn't the best mom today...I yelled a few times and didn't do the steps to take privileges away..I just took it...It just drives me crazy that Kyrsten never wants to help...she never wants to pick up her own messes...She is being raised by a single mom so she better get on it. And fast.
Plus, it's hard to have to figure it all out by myself...I'm stressed. I was supposed to get my $365 (it used to be $600) in food stamps on Monday...and yesterday afternoon I checked my card balance and I hadn't gotten it yet...So I called this morning and she said they had been cancelled (long story)...I sent my latest (smaller) paychecks, and she reinstated me..and now I'm getting, $200...which I'm extremely grateful for, but I can't feed us on that amount...$365 was ok (and a bit of a challenge)...Maybe if I don't eat the half of the week I don't have the girls $200 will do...I don't get it...My income didn't increase...I know one person in the household left...but you can't feed 3 people on $200...I guess I'll have to find the way...
Supplementing my income is not working very well...After my initial investment of a blackboard, markers, batteries, a portable CD player, and the time I spend preparing the classes...I don't really make much at all...I think it is very important for kids to learn Spanish but it really feels like more of a sacrifice than a gain right now, to be honest...Maybe I'll just make it a summer thing...Who knows...
I really need to get this job now...Really really do...Or I don't know what I'm going to do...I can't sell my body, cause no one will even take it for free...God will provide..he always does...Pray for the job too...
I hate being in the system...I can't wait to get off of it...It stinks and makes no sense...And I work my butt off for a place who had millions in over profit every year...it's a joke...
My sister in law has been having mild contractions for a day and a half now...so hopefully this weekend we'll have a baby...I can't wait to meet her. Plus, babies put things in perspective...
OK, enough complaining...Time to dream of a better future...
Love,
Cata
ps...this was in my drafts for some reason...its from last friday...

Life is perfect!!!!

It's been a great weekend and it's only Saturday of a long weekend...
Friday night the Air Force Academy Orchestra played at the park...Retired people (most of our community), sat ALLLL afternoon in their foldable camping chairs...We got there about one hour before, and you couldn't see anything...So, I strategically placed us very near the park so we could get tired before they started playing...Swinging gets me more tired than the girls...
My mini double folding camping chairs and stroller were left abandoned all show...and we just played...with music...It was perfect...I danced with them (a few years from now they'll be embarrassed of their mom's shamelessness), sang, talked with friends...Perfect...Olivia only threw sand to 2 kids and knocked down her friend with a hug...pretty good...Perfect...
Today, Spanish class...which was a bit chaotic but I believe the kids are having a lot more fun and learning a lot...I'm still not ready to have them all by myself...but it's been a learning process, that's still going...
Then I went to learn how to change the oil of my car (in my road to be self sufficient), and cleaned the car.
My friend's husband came to mow my wild lawn...It was such a hard task and he made it look so easy...I'm so grateful...I got a mower...It was a lot more expensive than I was planning to spend and that I can afford but at least it's one thing more off my to do list...Now I can just keep up with it...forever and ever...
Then, we went to the park..it was so much fun...I was swinging with the girls...realizing how perfect my life is...just right then...
I've been having a lot of those moments that I just "stop and smell the roses"...that I just see the perfection in how things are... :) I'm happy :) What a huge statement to make...
Find perfection in simple things!!!
Love to all my fans who still read e even though I write with no cohesiveness...
Cata

First Spanish Class

I woke up today with my littlest screaming...She had just peed and she had a horrible rush...I made an appointment immediately and took her to the doctor. He said that it was just a diaper rush and gave me some special ointment. I showed him what I had been putting on her, vitamin A (lotion from Argentina that I use for everything), and he said that makes it worse, that locks the moisture (duh...)...I can't beliueve I made it worse...She's naked in my house all day, I think that's helped a lot...Poor thing!!!
I have been staying up pretty late...I just play around in the computer, nothing special...I like the peace I guess...And then I'm so tired during the day...bad bad me.
Last night, I stayed up finishing details for my Spanish for Kiddos class who started today...for the class, I made up 2 songs and a game...it all needs to be related so I consider that very creative of me. Specially since I always was trying to grow up and, therefore, didn't do much playing...I also had a hard time going to bed because I was so nervous about it...
I have never taught more than one kid at a time, and never this little...I think everything went really well, except for I was done by 30 minutes and I felt everything took it's appropiate time...We did some playing later, which I think is good. They all thanked me, which was very sweet, but one of the mom's thanked me like I was providing an exceptional service to the community. That was very humbling.
I really enjoyed it and I think the parents enjoyed it a lot too...The kids are not sure yet :)...
My new friend's husband came after class to measure my yard to help me figure out how much it would be for a fence, which would also help w the class. Plus, people that drive by and neighbors wouldn't think I am so weird for bonding with my sod. I'm very excited but very nervous because it is very possible I can't afford it and that would be very sad...
Ok, you can really tell I am tired by my wonderful expressiveness...
Sleep tight!
Cata